Four April

That night,
I was crying uncontrollably ..
I feel like there is a big hole in my heart ..
I find myself lost in thought under the shower ..

I found myself almost hurt, when I’m holding a glass, I think of you, my heart sank ..
the glass was falling almost on my feet ..

when I’m crossing the street, I think of you,
I almost got hit by a motorcycle .. I’m pondering ..

You are everything that I saw for this past 4 years ..
I always look at you ..
but now all of it is different,
There is always something wrong , no matter how hard I try
I want to be happy for you ..
but I can not
but I also do not get angry
I also was not disappointed
You never make me disappointed
for 4 years you always make me smile ..

every time I have sadness,
You gave me strength
you gave me all love that I couldn’t get

I want to understand you,
but I’m too selfish for that

in the past, I’m always happy to see your smile ..
but since that day, I felt my world crumble every time I see your smile

I want to understand you
I know this is difficult for you too
I should support you
but I can not
for the first time in my life, I let myself be sad endlessly..
I’m drowning in my sorrow
I’m immersed in my denial

I’m giddy
I’m confused
my heart was back and forth to you
whether I should stay with you
or not

if I could handle all of this or not
if I could bear all this pain or not
if I could see you in the same way , or
I should never see you again

I was really indecisive
I think ,
I lost my world

say something

Right now
i really into this song

I really want someone to “say something”
I’m tired of waitin
and it’s hurt whenever I see that people face ..
I’m giddy ..
either that person have the same feeling or not ..

I swallow my pride ?
I even ignored my future plan ..
only for that people , to see me ..
only for that people turned their face to me ..
and say something ..

High above the ground

You and I both, we come from different worlds
I’m a small town kid and you’re an uptown girl
We’ve both been hurt, we got a few scars
But it don’t matter now, we’re staring at the stars

When it comes to my heart you gotta catch and fall
Deep down in my soul I know that I would die
If I didn’t have you how could I ever fly?
100 miles beyond the sky

[Chorus x2:]
It’s feeling like we’re high above the ground
It’s feeling like we never coming down
Til we want to
But why would we want to (now)?

Remember that day, we knew it from the start
We’ve come a long way and we’re gonna go far
I see the future in your eyes
Forever and always, you and I

[Chorus x2:]
It’s feeling like we’re high above the ground
It’s feeling like we never coming down
Til we want to
But why would we want to (now)?

[Bridge:]
When we’re so close to heaven
Then we gonna like this paradise
It’s gonna be too hard to say
Goodnight yeah

[Chorus x4:]
It’s feeling like we’re high above the ground
It’s feeling like we never coming down
Til we want to
But why would we want to (now)?

derita derita

Aku menulis ini saat derita sedang memanas 
Derita dan penyebab penderitaannya , 
Mreka sedang bertengkar 
Derita diam , tapi orang itu terus menyakiti tidak teredam
Hujat seperti pemang tajam , sumpah serapah seperti palu godam ,
Derita diam 
 
 
Jika kalian melihat hal ini , tentu air mata tak terbendung …
Tapi derita diam
Sorot matanya sayu kosong, namun sesaat kemudian mata itu menyala-nyala karena …
Mungkin karena kesakitan , atau karena dendam ..
Entah 
 
Derita tetap diam , aku tidak tahu kata-kata orang itu tidak didengarnya , atau justru terbenam dalam hatinya..
Aku ingin mengatakan , bahwa dia se harusnya melawan , 
Tapi sepertinya dia lebih memilih kepedihan sebagai teman 

someone from the sun

Sepertinya aku sudah terlalu lama meninggalkanmu 
 
Sepertinya aku sudah terlalu jauh berpaling darimu
 
Someone from the sun
 
Mungkin aku terlalu lelah berada didekatmu , menahan setiap pesona
Tapi , lebih melelahkan bila tidak melihatmu
Lelah mengkhawatirkanmu
Khawatir
Aku masih mengkhawatirkanmu
Berarti aku masih peduli padamu
Sangat
Sangat amat khawatir
Berarti masih sangat peduli 
 
Mengapa kamu membiarkan aku pergi ? 
Mengapa kamu membiarkanku berpaling ? 
 
 
Ahh.. 
Sepertinya aku tahu 
 
Ckck 
Dasar licik 
Kamu pasti tahu kalau aku akan kembali padamu kan ? 
Se jauh apapun aku pergi , aku akan kembali padamu 
Aku akan kembali ke tempat dimana aku berasal , 
Kamu adalah poros hidupku , sumber detak jantungku .. 
Maaf , kamu menunggu terlalu lama . 

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Aku melakukan semua ini untuk mengejarmu 
Membuang semua yang berguna untukku hanya untuk menunggu kehadiranmu yang tidak pasti 
Aku ini opurtunis yang bodoh , atau  si romantis yang gila ? 
Di akhir semua hal yang kubuang ada kepastian untukku , namun aku memilih dirimu 
 
Mata itu tidak mau melepaskan aku , 
Atau aku yang tidak bisa terlepas darinya ? 
Aku tahu ini akan ada akhirnya , aku tidak bisa lari .. Tapi aku tidak mau akhir itu datang terlalu cepat 
Jangan
Biarkan aku menikmati saat ini .lebih lama 

 

sorry

For you , the one that make my day 

for you , the one that make my life colorful

for you , the one that always heal my pain

for you , the one who own my happiness 

for you , the one who always fill my mind with your smile 

for you , the one I looking for ……………… 

 

I’m sorry 

I’m sorry 

I’m a coward 

Sorry for not being there when you came 

sorry for not stand in front of you 

sorry for not welcoming you