What it means to live freely ?

” Not living according to what people want ,

living according to what you have ,

living while doing what you want to do ,


not getting scolded while living like that ” .


I think ,

right now I don’t have a consciousness

I’m not aware with a reality

A reality

that we must

that we should

that we have to

that we shall

to live

“Live” in the definition of other people

“Live” with others expectation

“Live” to obey the rule

People said ,

I waste my time

I wasted an opportunity

But , I said

I’m trying to live

living with my on way

live according to my personal opinion

I just want to live

even though I’m in the unconscious state ,

at least I live on my way

I’m living my ownself

at least I feel that I’m ALIVE


If I had a chance ,

If I could be reborn ,

I want to be born without anyone beside me .

What’s the difference anyway ?

Couple years ago ,

I was born into the world

with bunch of people cherish on me ,

they’re greet me happily ,

but now ,

as time passed …

I feel like they tortured me

this family

this society

I hurt , they hurt me ,

many times  .

There’s a lot of people around me ,

but I’m lonely

It felt like , I could kill myself anytime

that word

that sentence

They hurt me everytime they talk

Their words strangle my neck

Their grin stab my heart

Their laugh shove my pride


I Living In Hell

I hide it

That pain .

I keep it , far away …

at the bottom of my heart .

That insult ,

I throw it far

That scar ,

I hide it well

That mockery ,

scattered my dream thousand times .

That hurtful words ,

destroy my soul every night


I pretend that nothing happen

I try to smile brightly ,

as bright as sunshine

I laughing hard and loud

the more I getting pain , the louder I laugh

That wound is stinging ,

but I keep and hide it well …

very well ,

so well , till I even didn’t feel hurt anymore …

I hide it so well ,

When I view at my heart ,

it was numb ,

it was die .

Then I realize ,

myself is barely breathing …

myself is trying to live again …

but I can’t

Because ,

I hide it so well

‘SPY’ Rilis Poster Resmi & Potongan Gambar Kim Jaejoong dan Go Sung Hee

Originally posted on KoreanIndo:


Drama KBS mendatang, ‘SPY’ merilis poster drama resmi dan beragam potongan gambar Kim Jaejoong dan Go Sung Hee, setelah sebelumnya merilis teaser pertama mereka.

Dalam poster terlihat aktris Bae Jong Ok yang melindungi Kim Jaejoong sambil menodongkan pistol ke pria misterius. Sedangkan poster lain menunjukkan para karakter utamanya.

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People say ,

Home is where the heart rest ..

Home is a comfortable place ..

But ,

I don’t think so

I even more lonely when I’m at home 

more devastated when I’m at home

All this time ,

I had a reason to run away from home ,

I had a reason to be busy so I didn’t need to stay at home 

But this time , isn’t longer …..

I had to find another excuse to be able to run away again from home 

Like many years ago ,

I was forced to leave my own “home”

It’s seems like imprint on my mind ,

that I shouldn’t be at home 

I’m not fit to be at home 

or ,

Is it what I called home , isn’t my real home ?